Crazy

Today is my fifth day in a row working 12 or more hours a day. I had a full sheet sized wedding cake to do plus another croquembouche and a specialty birthday cake. Tomorrow will be my sixth. Hopefully I'll get out early tomorrow, within 6-7 hours. Now that I only have one day off a week I find it hard to juggle the rest of my life. Being a chef consumes all of me. On Mondays I try to do my laundry( including all my dirty work clothes), run errands (such as going to the bank because it's closed by the time I leave work), spend time with friends, family, boyfriend, clean up the mess I make during the week, do some grocery shopping, do something for my mom because she is kind enough to cook me dinner and do the dishes for the 6 days that I come home late, eat, and go to straight to bed, do something for me that makes me happy, and have some time to relax and unwind and rest my sore body. Needless to say this doesn't all get done. I feel like I'm spreading myself thin. I feel guilty for not replying to emails sooner. I feel guilty when I can't make it to functions with family or friends (i.e. birthday dinners, holiday get togethers, etc) . I feel guilty that I only have time to call my boyfriend to say goodnight. I don't have too many chef friends. Sometimes I feel like the people around me don't understand what I do and my busy schedule. My lifestyle is not normal. I work early. I get out late. I don't have weekends off. Right now that's my life. So what am I going to do on my precious day off? I have to make myself a to do list or else I end up just sitting here staring off into space because my brain is dead. This Sunday night and Monday my plan is to spend a little time with my neglected boyfriend before he has to go to work, go to my cousin's baby's one month celebration, have lunch with a friend, pick up some stuff for work at the restaurant supply store, go home and do laundry, quit the gym because I never go, change my sheets because sometimes I don't have the will power to shower and I sleep in it all sweaty and gross, try on a bridesmaid dress at my friends house which I was supposed to do earlier in the week (sorry Terry!) , return some clothes?, and make dinner for my mom. I'm sure somewhere in there I am forgetting something. Oh yea my friend just had a baby so I want to visit her and the baby (Congrats Annie and Paul!). We'll see if I get everything done. But the one thing I will make sure I do is sleep in!